Small Worlds, *backGroundMusic*...

I am guilty of failing to be consistent. I struggle with commitments. Whether it be a diet, exercise routine and relationships in general. It's not that I fail to commit because I love myself any less or I enjoy wasting people's time. It's simply because life is overwhelming! One minute you think you got your shit together and the next you feel like a complete failure! I mean is there truly winning? How many times do we always have to face hardship and struggle? It's sort of like there's a queue of problems waiting to be serviced by you. Once you deal with one problem the next appears. Sometimes life feels like a losing game and all you want to do is get off that hamster wheel.

As I'm typing this out it just hit me that I am way too hard on myself! It is sometimes hard to see your efforts when the results are as small as a grain of rice. I find myself stressing about the future that I forget to live in the present moment. 99.99999% of the times I feel anxious is cause I am stressing about a past that no longer exists and a future that doesn't yet exist. But if I am amid these dreadful emotions and become aware of how I am feeling and choose to ground myself in the present moment, I find ease, a kind of peace that is always there within me but my mind is always too busy to realize on it.

I find it difficult to not give a fuck, and the weird thing about all this is, we find it cool when we meet people that don't express their emotions. The"i don't give a fuck" mentality is seen as glory. We hate feeling negative emotions so bad that we disregard feelings in general because we fear getting hurt. That shouldn't be seen as a great ideology because there's nothing fun about being a robot. Emotions constantly in motion, meant to keep you in a constant state of being. Aware of what your body is trying to tell you. We have a lot of people ignoring us already, isn't it just harsh when you ignore yourself too? Maybe it's about time we give ourselves the attention we seek from others.

There's this perfected self image we all strive to one-day achieve and thus only depriving ourselves from being ourselves....

We are:

1. Beings, meant to make mistakes

2. Beings, meant to dwell in constant learning...you know, the "norms"...

*wink*🙂.

1. Beings, meant to love.

2. Beings meant to feel.

3. Beings, meant to give, share and live in harmony.

*They're perfect, you're perfect, I'm perfect..

But perfects, not perfect...!??*

😂💎Have yourself a great week ahead.

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"Verse 3]

Yeah, nine times out of ten I get it wrong

That's why I wrote this song, tell myself to hold on

I can feel my fingers slippin'

In a motherfuckin' instant, I'll be gone

Do you want it all if it's all mediocre?

Staring at the wall and the wall full of posters

Lookin' at my dreams, who I wanna be

I guess you gotta see it to believe

Oh, I been a fool but it's cool, that's what human beings do

Keep your eyes to the sky, never glued to your shoes

Guess there was a time when my mind was consumed

But the sun coming out now, clouds start to move

Don't tell me nothing but the truth

I'm tired, I don't gotta spare a second

Win or lose, win or lose

I don't keep count, nobody checkin'"-Legend Miller

-stay bless'💚🌻