Reflect & Recharge

Sometimes I feel as though I could jump off a window of a really high building or maybe intake a whole lot of pills....The thoughts of ending my life do visit me once in a while(often). Does that mean I'm suicidal? I have no clue, I feel like we all get these thoughts(yea?), once in a while(often). But we're all so afraid to bring it up cause we might seem as though we're "insane".

You Seee, that's the thing about pain, whether it be physical, emotional or even psychological pain. Each and every single one of us goes through it, a life without pain? Idk, sounds way to perfect! and also, how does one grow like that?? I've had pain in different kinds of forms , physical pain, emotional pain and maybe psychological pain too. I mean trauma is a thing right?? I'd always ask myself "what is the point?" the point of all of this? The pain? The happy moments? The point of every single thing we face and feel? Maybe it all has to do with purpose? but then again! this life? everything we feel and see?

I believe all these emotions carry some kind of value, a reason behind our "feels" maybe that's why emotions are super important. Imagine being a human without having to feel anything? Sounds cool no lie, but I do not think there's any fun in being a robot😉.

I had just started this blog, I was super excited about it and then all of a sudden all that inspiration and desire sort of just left. I would say I had a writers block or maybe I just really didn't have much to say because I myself was in an abyss. We will discuss all and I mean aaaallllllll of this as time goes by and healing takes place slowly but surely💚

Words of encouragement? We never know what's in-store for us, we never know what windows are open because we trying so hard to unlock the door. A whole lot has happened in my life and it has just been 22 years😂! giving up has never been my thing. Not because I'm strong or anything extraordinary lol, I've just been scared of what I'd find on the other side.  As much as the world hasn't been really fair towards me, there are people I really, really love! and want to see grow. I want to be there to celebrate their accomplishments.!

Sometimes looking at yourself and only focusing on your "bad life situations" might block you from seeing the good happening all around you. Finding that little bit of solace around you, can give you a little bit of strength and hope. It's just a little bit but it's enough to keep us hoping and coping.

We're far from perfect but that doesn't mean that we can't be happy from the slightest things!

Have a blessed one💚love and Light.